Every time I’ve sat down to blog in the past two weeks since coming back from Mexico, I found myself so frustrated with the amount of stuff I want to share, that I left it for yet another day. And another day. And another.
I shot the last wedding of the season on the first Saturday of October, and since then have gone into full HIBERNATION MODE. Complete with mini-panic attacks, late nights, late mornings, to-do lists, wine and yoga. My fingertips seem to type and process still moments behind my eyelids even while I sleep… and there is still no end to it.
We wedding photographers need and want everyone to think we have it all together. Yet there are days when I feel like I’m about to crumble under the weight of my own expectations, doubts … and those endless to-do lists. And then there are other days, when my cheeks hurt from smiling because I’m so hopeful and full of love.
I woke up today and saw snow outside the window. I lingered in bed, nostalgic for warm days, adventures, and summer memories. I’m not going to slow down, but I promise myself I will take more time to breathe. Because today I felt as if I inhaled somewhere in February and only started to exhale sometime in the now.
Here are a few images waiting on my desktop. I promise to share more soon…
with so much love,
My favourite wedding of the season… hands down. Montreal, QC. Botanical Gardens. Keisha & Tika, you make me laugh and cry, time and time again. Miss you so so much already. Rob and I have already started a separate travel fund to come visit you in Gabon!Intimate Portraiture shoot at Barcelo Maya Palace, Mayan Riviera. To Iza & JD … You’ve inspired me and shook me to my core.Biggest Indian wedding of the year in Vancouver, BC. Reena and Amit found stillness for a few moments that day with us… New York, Gansevoort Hotel Park Avenue. The most honest and touching Intimate Portraiture shoot this year for me. Amanda & JT, so grateful for you.Edmonton Anniversary couples portraits. Edmonton, AB. Amanda & Tim, you rock!! Teenage sweethearts to soulmates… wow. ‘Coolest’ wedding of the year (Rob said it first!) in Vancouver, BC. Leah & Andrew are so real and grounded. Loved every moment with you guys… Especially this one, you are about to see each other for the first time and I have butterflies in my stomach like I’m an exotic greenhouse.Intimate Portraits in California, Laguna Beach. Michelle & Curtis, I would let the ocean drench me head to toe again for you any day. So long as there’s a tub of rice to take the moisture out of my camera… That was wild!!Intimate Portraiture shoot that froze time and left me breathless. Abandoned spa. To L.R. & L.I. … thank you for taking me to new heights of storytelling. Cheers to real bath bubbles!let’s connect on facebook & twitter | email katya